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So, I belive I'm trapped in a loop. o`A`o!! And it has this feeling of being unbreakable, because even when it seems like things are working, it just goes back to suckage.  Atleast in my messed up brain, thats how it appear.  The things I would like to happen and the things that are really happening seem so different to me now, and I'm stuck in the middle, unable to/avoiding joining either one.  As much as I would want to accept the idea of things never going to be like I'd want it too, the more I push myself away from whats really going on.  Which in return only makes the stuff that hurts, to hurt more.  And ends with that familiar sinsation of nobody giveing a rats ass.  So the question is, why cant I just get past it?  Move on, dont worry, avoid it all together and hope for the best?  If I did that, it would be like starting all over.  And I dont know how I would handle that much change at once, haha.  I used to think that nothing phased me stonge enough. That I could simply brush it off and carry on.  But damn was I wrong.  xD

Well, who really knows whats going to happen, till it happens.  In the end I already know it has to be me that will have to change to fix myself.  And if I have to fade out of the picture to do it, well then, guess thats what I'll need to do.   <(｀^´)>

I'm just rambling outloud~

-End of odd journal entry-

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you ever get the feeling that you just got ditched at the starting line as you watch the other racers dissapear in front of you?...


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Gunna upload a shiet load of old art at one time, cause thats how I do things.  >;D